Guilty, 2014

Havar, fall, 2014
Johan is 53, Myra and Naraj are 19, Udar is 10

Johan was finally returning to the rhythms of life. It had been two simyears since that horrible day when Jadhira died and he had only just stopped referring to himself as married on important documents.

He was thankful for his children, thankful that Naraj chose to stay nearby for university instead of pursuing a degree in another hood.

Thankful that Myra had such a busy life going on and that she still shared the details of that life with him.

Everything from the house hunting search and how hard it was to find a decent apartment,

to the news about the wedding planning.

She was mostly planning the wedding with Abel and her future mother in law, Rebecca. He knew that summer 2015 would be here quickly and that there was a lot of details still left.

Things like dresses, flowers and the all important location. Abel's parents had volunteered their backyard and  basement for the event considering the couple only wanted family and close friends in attendance. The yard was small, but it would be large enough for a canopy and some chairs, best of all, it would be free and for a couple on a small budget, free is sometimes the best reason for choosing something.

Udar was doing well, even though Johan felt guilty for neglecting him in the beginning. If it wasn't for Myra, he wasn't sure that Udar would have even been fed for the last few simyears.

He was doing much better, in fact his last report card he earned all As and a spot on the honor roll.

To celebrate Johan took him fishing, which was widely unsuccessful as they neither caught fish.

Yes, he was slowly getting back into the rhythms of life, but he still thought of Jadhira often. He would sit outside and look for "their star"

and every time he saw a passing comet, he couldn't help but feel that she was smiling down at him.