Monday, May 26, 2014

Whole Again, 2017

Remar, summer, 2017
Julio is 50, Rebecca is 47



How were they supposed to know how quickly life could change. They had been through some gloriously boring times in their lives and now they longed for those times. Anything to keep their mind off of her. They focused on each other,




they reached out to family,


they went new places, 


made new friends, 


thought about adopting again. But it wasn't enough, nothing would be enough. They had lost their daughter and finally they came to terms with it. Instead of running away, they embraced it. They embraced the days filled with sadness and were thankful for the days that only contained spots of sadness. They would always remember of course, but they still went through life.


They reopened the Toy Shoppe.


It was bigger and better,


more inventory,


more hand crafted items and business was doing well.


They were looking forward to becoming grandparents. It seemed ironic that Julio was turning 50, the stereotypical age of grandparents and he was about to welcome a nieto or nieta soon.


They brought gifts whenever they visited, because that's what grandparents do, especially those that get wholesale prices on toys and baby gear.


When the days were too long, and the tears too fresh


they came together


holding each other desperately into the night


and wondering if their world would ever feel whole again.

12 comments:

  1. I'm glad Julio and Rebecca are carrying on with their lives, even though they still feel the loss of Ana Rayne. To be honest I miss her too. Maybe becoming grandparents will bring a little more happiness into their lives.
    As a side note, the Toy Shoppe looks great with all the cute little stuffed animals and things. I'm sure your kidlets love it. :)

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    1. Grandparent hood will bring lots of joy to them, I love the new shop as well, very spacious and light and airy. Thanks for reading and commenting, VT

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  2. I feel so badly for them. No one expects them to feel good, and they shouldn't rush things. I hope they remember in the toughest times, that they will heal. It'll be a hell of a scar though.

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    1. I like that, it will be a rough scar, healed, but still evidence of the wound. Thanks for reading and commenting, Fini.

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  3. What you wrote of embracing days full of sadness and enjoying days with spots of sadness is poignant and true to an irreconcilable loss.

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    1. Such loss is a daily healing journey. One does not just get over grief, it's just a slow healing until that day they too pass from this life. Thanks for reading and commenting, Shannon.

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  4. This poor family. They do seem to be coping about as well as one could expect them too, under the circumstances. Who ever expects to lose their child? :(

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    1. Losing a child is so horrific, unfortunately it seems to happen more often than one would like of course. Thanks for reading and commenting, Carla.

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  5. Their toy shop looks really great, and I'm glad that they are putting themselves back out there, and living their life. But how sad for them, horribly really. It'd be hard to be grandparents when missing your daughter.

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    1. They're trying to celebrate the new life and stage that they're entering, but yes they are still raw and empty from their loss. Thanks for reading and commenting, Maisie,

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  6. This is so sad, and it feels realistic, too, with them trying to move forward as best they can.

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    1. They are trying, she was their surprise baby, but deeply loved of course and now dealing with loss is a daily sludge, thanks for reading and commenting

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